People’ voices were like firing guns in my ear .
Million gallons of nitroglycerin! Denying to be a victimiser of flatter. lies. etiquette : i was safe. and the nonexistence of phone , watch , T.V , bike , friends; i was sane.. but I’m antisocial, they say. I don’t mix. It’s so strange. I’m very social indeed. Autumn says . and she sang me the communion , thots , invisible, shattered pieces..” My final plea. No one is coming to save me. No one is going to change things. The answers will not drop from the sky. I will not one day wake with a different disguise NOOOO! “.. it was a huge black cloud.. forever..Above us.. chasing .crushing . for hours and days and weeks. Nothing but to camouflage .. inside these four walls..incarcerated ! Forlorn in my own withering soul , my imagination became the universe.. and rest of the world just gaped out..So ..so..I had to.. you know..
she was kind..
she was funny..
different. fucked up. unstable. crazy…
But I had to..
had to vanquish her.
sayonara AUTUMN !